How to forgive?

A simple question.

Without getting in to the details, I'm stubborn when it comes to forgiveness. I know, I know, it's a problem. And I'm trying to fix it, truly, I am.

But how in the world do you do it!?

Again, without getting in to the details, a family member of mine might die, and this particular family member is not the nicest person ever. This person has never made any effort to apologize, or even make contact until last year, which, I totally get, I understand that. But what I can't get over, is that this person just expects everything to be okay, and it's not. I want to forgive them, I want to, but I can't. I've been talking to Samson on this for awhile, but nothing has worked. I know it's a heart issue, and I have to work it out myself. But it's really, really hard to forgive someone who hasn't apologized.

Sorry, but no uplifting message on this one, guys. In fact, it's a bit of a downer.

I honestly don't know what I expected from writing this, but I think I might start writing a lot more, because it helps me think. 

Farewell, and all godspeed.

- George